. I feel so sad :( and I have no idea what to write but I just need to get this out. I’m just going to keep writing without stopping and put down whatever comes into my head. I feel like everyday is a struggle.. get up.. face it.. get through it.. and then do it all again the next day and the day after that. I feel like all I want to do is lay in bed and cry :( all day everyday and never have to get up. I know that this is partly because I’m bulimic, but I also know that it’s more than that. I’m so lonely :( I like to be around people all the time to distract me from eating, but I never feel fulfilled. I met the most wonderful person on the weekend, and the way he made me feel I can’t even describe. But he has a gf and I know is too good for me :( He’s actually the first person who has made me stop thinking about my ex.. but when I feel lonely like this, my ex is the only person I want to msg :( I just want to curl up into a ball and not speak to anyone not see anyone and not face the world. My mum keeps talking to me and I can’t even think, her nagging and nagging and nagging is making me want to burst into tears :( I really don’t know where my life is going.. I can’t be fucked with uni, I can’t be fucked with work. I just want it allllllllllllllll to go away. Away away away away away. Nothing makes me happy anymore :( I feel terrible for saying all of this, because I know there are people in the world who have nothing.. but if I be completely honest, the way I feel at the moment is that I will never EVER be truly happy :( :( :(
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I feel so sad :( and I have no idea what to write but I just need to get this out. I’m just going to keep writing without stopping and put down whatever comes into my head. I feel like everyday is a struggle.. get up.. face it.. get through it.. and then do it all again the next day and the day after that. I feel like all I want to do is lay in bed and cry :( all day everyday and never have to get up. I know that this is partly because I’m bulimic, but I also know that it’s more than that. I’m so lonely :( I like to be around people all the time to distract me from eating, but I never feel fulfilled. I met the most wonderful person on the weekend, and the way he made me feel I can’t even describe. But he has a gf and I know is too good for me :( He’s actually the first person who has made me stop thinking about my ex.. but when I feel lonely like this, my ex is the only person I want to msg :( I just want to curl up into a ball and not speak to anyone not see anyone and not face the world. My mum keeps talking to me and I can’t even think, her nagging and nagging and nagging is making me want to burst into tears :( I really don’t know where my life is going.. I can’t be fucked with uni, I can’t be fucked with work. I just want it allllllllllllllll to go away. Away away away away away. Nothing makes me happy anymore :( I feel terrible for saying all of this, because I know there are people in the world who have nothing.. but if I be completely honest, the way I feel at the moment is that I will never EVER be truly happy :( :( :(
